When sudden growth strikes youth,

Flicker of light is coming

Inside of a dark jar,

Fueling intense emotion,

Searching for perfect sooth.

As jar's inferno spreads,

Bearer seeks outsiders love

To quench the burning's size.

Instead they pour gasoline.

Fate seems thinning it's threads.

While swallowing the heck,

Fumes start to suffocate.

Gets harder to contain

The despair and the anger.

Jar's walls begin to crack.

Jar of fire in pieces,

Spreads the hurting more and more,

Till it burns the holder 

From skin, deep into the soul. 

Only pain releases.

*Author's Note: 

        It's been a long time since I posted. I hope you had a better 2021 than I had. I have been inactive in terms of coming out with something worth sharing because I have been going through hard stuff. I have been coping (and I still am) with mental issues that I have accumulated and ignored throughout the years. I also gave up on college because it wasn't working for me.

         Even though I felt 2021 was monotonous, I still have some highlights to share. The Newgrounds Summer Festival was one unexpected situation. I had very low expectations of just being one boring event. I just joined for curiosity sake at first. But in the end, I got more than I expected. I made bonds with people who were kilometers away (sorry 'Muricans, but I'm European) that seemed to be dorky outcasts like me, who are very talented and creative and share the same edgy crackhead pee pee poo poo humor that I like. Finally I found people that I can truly relate to. I know this is a bit corny to say, but Newgrounds and it's wonderful community( you guys rock!) gave me hope and reason to create. I also got for Christmas my first ever drawing tablet, a Huion H 610 V2 Pro (now I feel like in the big leagues with the other digital artists)

         I don't really know what to expect from 2022. I feel like I am crossing a very foggy road with no seeming destination nor end. But that's life I guess. I will definitely try finding a job to get money for investing in future projects. Also I want to be better at drawing and writing (which is hard with the state I am but I try my best to put some minimal effort by doodling, even if the results don't satisfy me and not worth sharing.) I wish you all a Happy New Year and success in your future endeavours!*